The Last Time: Friends in Asia

The Last Time: (final)

The last time I wrote about this, I was sure it would it was the last time.

And yet, here I am, again.

I was lost, the kind of lost that made me feel I was drinking again, but I haven’t had a drop in five years.

I knew I was the same, but everything felt different. I had changed, I had learned and grown, but somehow I found myself right back to where I started. Everything hurt, my body felt worn. My mind and spirit felt exhausted and negative. I was out of gas, I was losing my essence.

That was 9 months ago.

Since then I’ve been traveling across the ocean blue looking for what I lost. A reminder, I needed a little reminder to feel a spark. Just a small drop of water could breathe life into me again.

It took a while. I was damaged. I had to turn everything off, reset. I had to let go. I had to remember to forget.

What truly changed me was meeting the world once again. I met people from across the planet. New and old friends comforted me. They aided my recovery in ways they might never know. They reminded me the world can be great because great people make it so. They made me believe again. They were the water I so desperately needed.

And over these last couple of months,

I FEEL ALIVE.

There is pep in my step, I’m taller, stronger, faster. i feel beautiful in my body and mind. I believe I can achieve and overcome. I can do whatever I want in this world.

Asia changed me. My experiences, the people, the places, they all touched my core. I expect them to shape me for the rest of my life. I went in expecting nothing, and yet, hoping for everythin. What I found though was more than I could have dreamed.

I found me, but I also found all of you, and that will be a gift I’ll never be able to repay.

Thank you Asia for returning to me more than I ever lost.

Thank you world. Thank you everyone.

What’s next Asia?!?

**Many more are not pictured because I didn’t have photos! But you all are equally as important 😘