Time
Everything is cyclical. Life moves and turns and you think it’s never going to feel the same just before it does. It looks you eye to eye and says “Here we go again, but are you ready this time?” Every moment is a chance to make fresh choices leading to new paths. It’s all relative. Yet, the difficulty is to unwind the moment in the moment. To realize we are in the middle of another great story already, that is hard to digest.
After traveling the world, I find myself having problems sitting still. I long to live fairy-tale lives I’ve tasted across the seas. Yet, at the same time, I feel drawn to not move at all watching the sun set in my window. Appreciation finds me settling for what I have while drawing up new plans for what I might again. Life is such a funny game to play.
Coming home has been an odd assortment of feelings. I’ve been sick and depressed, I’ve been joyful and warm, comforted, humbled, yet still unsettled. Many changes have happened in my life in a few short years—even weeks. It reminds me of where I’ve been and where I want to go. I’m on a mission, but when that mission seems hard to reach, I drift to the most important items on the list. I think of love and belonging, I think of what I will cherish when I close my eyes one last time. I think of those who I need to say things to most, of what I know, but they might be unsure of.
For the first time in my life, I know I’m living with intention. Every part of my life is there because I chose it. Whatever tomorrow brings, whatever path I go, it will be my own because it’s what I decided.
What happens now just comes down to belief. Set with adaptability and confidence, I can handle anything, go anywhere, do anything. Whether it’s sitting here the rest of my life or jetting around; the world is forever my oyster. I just have to remember the great story never stops.
Everyday is another page I get to write, it’s up to me to find the value. We don’t get to choose our time, we only get to decide what to do with it.
Only the question remains:
“Are you ready this time?”
“You-better-fucking-believe-it.”